its all about me

' I must Learn to love the fool in me..The one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks of self-control, loves and hates, hurts and get hurts, promises and break promises, laugh and cries'

Minggu, 06 September 2009

One of the reason why im proud to be indonesian

bosen mantengin TV recorder beralihlah sayah kyoutube.dan OMG..uve to check this out guys.what an amazing voices and anw..this is his own song.MY GOD!!!!

Sabtu, 05 September 2009

expecting too much

Hhh..sometimes we just expect too much of life in general and of other peeps in particular. i think i need to learn how to 'mengikhlaskan' something. if i used the word patient as a terms and usual english translations, a number of significant meaning difference are brought to light thats why i used the terms of 'mengikhlaskan' *Ive read one of malay journal on science direct about this :p,not because i want to sounds like a scientist here but only to inform you readers :p.

off to the main topic, sometimes..evethough ive try to mengikhlaskan but there's a sound in my heart i believe its came from my brain actually*sigh..this one tiny,nagging voice inside my head asking for something in return. thats why being a patient/ikhlas person will be the good one because you didnt expect or hope the other party to do the same thing in return.Because when we hope for them to do the same thing that we did for them,and in the end it turned out that they didnt even give a damn about the effort that we have put in, we would feel frustrated, deeply furious or disappointed.besides that..if we ikhlas doing something, kita akan all out membuat something regardless of whether you got something in return or not.ahh,i know all of this and wish i can also learn untuk mengihklaskan sesuatu and not asking for something in return just like what i did now *sigh

Sabtu, 29 Agustus 2009

how i love being loved by you

Your love makes me feel blessed. To have you in my lifeI realize how blessed I am :)
Because of all the things your love gives me.I know every word you say is true, with all the things I've already written..that's part of why I love being loved by you.
There isn't enough time in a day Nor words, that even though they are true.. That can explain the depth's of our love..To tell you why I love being loved by you..

oh how i love being loved by you honey..:)

Jumat, 28 Agustus 2009

Im in a War, Heart vs Head

I've been having a bit of a discussion with my sister whether i would choose career success and the job of my dreams over love. I used to think I was very headstrong, independent and knew the answer in this situation, career! But that was me who hadn't been in love before. That was me who thought all relationships are doomed. My views have somewhat changed of late. In fact I dont know whats happened to the strong willed independent girl I used to be..

for instance..i met a guy, u might will laught at me when i tell you that i know him from friendster.HaHa..itsnot like a blinddate if you think so.i knew him from my friend who seems to like to find a friend-mate.anyway..im not that desperate that you think..Haha,in fact i love being single @ that time.when i firsttime met him,i still didnt feel anything until we pray together in his house.well then, this little thing called love knocked me straight on to my butt.

from the first time i knew him, i know that we have different outlooks on the world, different needs, different expectations-all of these can cause a rift that might seem at times unbridgeable. But bridge that gap i must, if it is my choice to share my life with another person.

well then, now ive too look at this situation completely sensibly and practically...ive find a suitable partner,someone supportive, interesting, fun, thoughtful and attractive..then what a waste of the rest of my life it would be to throw him away and my goal i could always pursue later, with him, at a more suitable time. I don't think of it as ive sacrified for love, I think of it as going together. Life is about taking risks and chances and seeing how you can make the best out of the situations you put yourself in. I know it's going to be VERY hard but it's worth it because being without him would be far worse. Sometimes his one kiss and hug could make the day brighter. So you see ..I'm hopeless.


at last..Love should be selfless as well as at times selfish


and for you, may you be blessed in both ways.. career and love life :D
cheers!

Minggu, 05 Juli 2009

Tentang Pemilu 2009

akhir2 ini profile saya memang dipenuh dengan hal2 yang berhubungan dengan pemilu. saya tidak masuk dalam salah satu tim sukses capres manapun tapi sebagai rakyat indonesia kali ini saya ingin masyarakat bisa berfikir terbuka demi nasib negara kita. mungkin dalam profile saya terkesan saya memihak pada satu presiden.tetapi semua itu ada dasarnya :). dan lebih kurang sama dengan comment yang saya copy paste dari kompasiana..kenapa saya copy paste?karena memang inilah dulu yang pernah saya rasakan..dimana saya dulu mendukung capres lain yaitu pak sby

Melek teknologi, internet ternyata tidak berbanding lurus terhadap penggunaan otak & logika dengan benar. Sudah sangat jelas peran pak JK, kalau pak JK adalh berbudi (pembohong), kenapa pak SBY diam saja? kenapa tidak dilaporkan pencemaran nama baik presiden yg kemudian menjadi kelihatan dg jelas tidak bisa berbuat banyak walaupun Jendral yg doktor???…..

Pengakuan terhadap kebenaran memang sangat sulit, bagi seseorang yang muup tingkat kualitas pendidikannya masih rendah. Pernyataan pro SBY yg cenderung menghujat toh tidak menghilangkan peran pak JK sbg “the real president”. Menghujat pak JK juga tidak merubah kedamaian & perdamaian yg dirasakan saudara2 kita di poso, ambon & aceh.

Sebagai seorang cewek, tadinya saya begitu bangga terhadap figur SBY yang sempurna, pintar, jenderal, gagah, halus, tindak-tanduk bak raja. akan tetapi sekian lama saya berusaha mencari tahu siapa pak SBY, siapa pak JK. akhirnya saya sadar. Manusia memang tidak ada yg sempurna, akan tetapi melihat, mencermati kelebihan & kekurangan pak JK. Tidak terbantahkan jauh lebih banyak kelebihannya.

Pak JK seorang Golkar, sy juga berusaha memahami & mencari tahu. Apa salahnya dengan Golkar. Golkar ORDE BARU adalah Golkar yg 70% (yg didukung ABRI, Birokrasi & Gol Golkar itu sendiri). Sangat aneh kalau masih mempermasalahkan Golkar. Kecenderungan bahwa orang2 korup atau yg suka menyalahgunakan kewenangan akan dengan mudahnya menjadi kutu loncat setelah Golkar memang tidak ada apa-apanya, Golkar tidak bisa membackup kepentingan2 pribadinya.

Dalam ajang Pilpres sangat jelas sekali, begitu minimnya pendanaan kampanye dr JK-WIN & Megapro begitu mencolok perbedaan dengan capres lain yg dg dana seperti unlimited walaupun kekayaannya paling sedikit.

Kita menjadi sangat yaqin bahwa pak JK adalah seorang yg sangat konsisten, mempunyai prinsip, istiqomah bukan seorang yg oportunis yg tiba2 pindah partai dan sok reformis, sok demokratis. Ibarat Golkar adalah negara dg masyarakat banyak yg korup, apakah kemudian negaranya dibubarkan? Ibarat Golkar sebuah rumah yg banyak tikusnya untuk menghilangkannya. Bahwa kemudian tikus2 menjadi sok demokrat, sok reformis berubah wujud pindah kerumah yg lain. Apakah kemudian rumahnya tetap harus dibakar??. Eksistensi Pak JK di Golkar, menjadikan sy semakin respect, tatkala melihat bahwa…anak-anaknya tidak serta merta menjadi pengurus DPP & menjadi anggota DPR.

Melihat kondisi bangsa saat ini, menjadi semakin jelas, yang kita perlukan adalah bukan sekedar simbol, akan tetapi pemimpin yg benar2 bisa bekerja. Walaupun tubuh, wajah tidak eye catching.

Saya sangat memaklumi, mungkin pak JK tidak akan menang, melihat kondisi tingkat kualitas pendidikan sebagian besar kawan2 kita masih sangat rendah. Dilihat dari tipikal yg bukan Pro JK yg biasa mengakses kompasiana seperti ini, apalagi kawan2 kita di desa & pedalaman.

Pak JK 2009 mungkin tidak akan menjadi Presiden. akan tetapi saya merasa bangga, bahwa saya telah bisa menggunakan, akal sehat saya, otak saya & hati saya untuk memilih dengan “BENAR”

Hidup JK for Presiden.

Kamis, 02 Juli 2009

Quotes of the days ^^

-pigmaei gigantum humeris impositi plusquam ipsi gigantes vident, newton-

meaning : knowledge that we achieve is a blessing achievements have been made by large peeps before us.therefor, no need for any arogancy just because we know a few things.

-"If I have been able to see farther than others, it was because I stood on the shoulders of giants.", sir isaac newton-

-"If I have made any valuable discoveries, it has been owing more to patient attention than to any other talent.", newton-

- every worthwhile accomplishment big or little, has it stages of drudgery and triumph : a beginning, a struggle and a victory, mahatma ghandi-

;(

-'The roots of education are bitter, but the fruit is sweet'-

yah,kata-kata ini selalu terdengar dkepala saya akhir-akhir ini. banyaknya masalah yang saya hadapi dalam menyelesaikan pendidikan master terkadang sampai membuat saya ingin mundur dari peperangan ini*kalau bisa dsebut demikian. seriuosly!u guys didnt have any idea what ive faced here :). some peeps can say easily : itu cuma hal yang biasa :). jika memang hal yang biasa, maka maafkanlah kelemahan saya kali ini dalam menghadapi cobaan. bukan karena ketakutan untuk belajar sesuatu yang tidak biasa..tidak..saya tidak takut untuk belajar sesuatu yang baru :)-if so..saya tidak akan berada disni, saat ini..ditengah2 kebingungan yang melanda. ahh..saya cuma berharap saya bisa segera lulus dan mencicipi buah yang telah susah payah saya tanam. ya Allah permudahlah jalan hamba-mu :)